we have gone two days without fast food. 
in this time we have unknowingly consumed three cases of coke, 2 bags of french fries and about 5704275049850945809438 tacos.

the point of this was to start eating healthier.
 

did you ever want something so much, but your mum wouldn't get it for you because she knew you'd get sick of it? 
and sure enough, after a week, you don't can't even remember what it is you wanted?

that's how i feel right now. but the feeling of want isn't leaving me.
it's just sitting inside me, eating me  alive.
and it won't leave.
until.
i have what i need.

i don't like commitment.
but i need the affection.
i don't want to hurt.
but i need the attention.
i don't want sex.
that makes me feel used.
i just need to hear
"i really love you"
 

it rhymes!
kind of.

today was a shitty day.  just like everyday i'm not with you.